Don’t say a word as you read this. I want you to be silent and listen with your heart. I want to touch your senses and feed your innermost soul. I need you to feel what I feel and see what I see. I don’t need to be there to guide you, all you have to do is go through this journey with me.
You broke my heart today. I hope you remember this for the rest of your life. I hope every waking day is haunted by the memories of the days I made you smile. I hope you are reminded of the good times when you see me with someone else. The love I gave you was all I had. I wrapped it in a bow, gifted it to you with a smile, but what did you do? You grabbed it from me and threw it back into my face. It meant nothing to you – now I understand. As I walk away and you attempt to chase me, I really hope you remember this for the rest of your life. That you broke my heart today. But I will never tell you this.
I want to hurt you. I want to make you feel how I felt. I will find a way to make you suffer, even if means that I have to do some physical damage to your property. The cracks are showing – I’m not as perfect as you thought I was. Clearly, because you left me alone to fend for myself, while you gallivant around town like nothing ever happened. You ignore my calls, texts and WhatsApp messages. Why are you painting me as the bad person when it was all your fault? It doesn’t matter now. Somehow, you’re going to pay for what you did. I just won’t be the one to do it. I want to hurt you so bad, but I will never tell you this.
Life is amazing! I want to jump in the sky and wear a necklace made out of cornflakes! I want to run through the fields, with my hands spread out because you make me feel like I am the only one. I don’t know how you do it, but every time I see you, my heart lights up in joy and the butterflies in my stomach, oh, how they tickle me! I cannot wait to wake up beside you, because you’re the first person I want to see in the morning. I want to make you smile and never let a day go by without showering you with kisses. I love you so much, but I will never tell you this, because I would prefer to show it.
What do you see in that person that you don’t see in me? I mean, I can walk like that. I can talk like that. Maybe there are a few physical features missing, but you love me. You just don’t know it yet. Wait, who is that person you’re standing with in that Facebook profile picture? Is that your new boo? Is that person going to make you feel the way I made you feel? Is that person going to love you the way I loved you? Trust me, you will never find someone like me again. I don’t care what you say, I will always be the love of your life and you know it. I hope you’re bitter. I hope you never find happiness. The thing is I can’t let you go, but I will never tell you this.
