Me a ditzy moron? I get it: Mariah

NEW YORK – Mariah Carey knows her indisputable talent clashes with her sexed-up image as a “ditz”.

“It’s a dichotomy, I understand,” the 37-year-old Grammy winner tells Allure magazine. “I understand that people think I am a ditzy moron.”The singer – who was treated for exhaustion in 2001 after a public meltdown – says she still struggles with her confidence.”I’ve always had really low self-esteem, and I still do,” she says.”What’s weird about that is being onstage, and the love that you get, and the adoration that you feel from your real fans.It’s hard for a partner to compete – just imagine.”Carey and ex-husband Tommy Mottola, the former chairman and CEO of Sony Music Entertainment, divorced in 1997.She has described that relationship as controlling and says: “I had to make a decision: either lose myself completely or learn to stand up for myself.You have to be very courageous to do that.”She says she would marry again – preferably, to someone who knows where she is coming from.”That’s a big deal for me: feeling like somebody else can’t fully understand me because they’re not in show business.It shouldn’t matter, but it does, because the energy it takes to be ‘on’ is a lot,” she says.Carey’s latest album, ‘EMC2’, arrives on April 15.Her previous album, ‘The Emancipation of Mimi’, has sold 10 million copies.The April issue of Allure hits newsstands nationwide on March 25.Nampa-AP”I understand that people think I am a ditzy moron.”The singer – who was treated for exhaustion in 2001 after a public meltdown – says she still struggles with her confidence.”I’ve always had really low self-esteem, and I still do,” she says.”What’s weird about that is being onstage, and the love that you get, and the adoration that you feel from your real fans.It’s hard for a partner to compete – just imagine.”Carey and ex-husband Tommy Mottola, the former chairman and CEO of Sony Music Entertainment, divorced in 1997.She has described that relationship as controlling and says: “I had to make a decision: either lose myself completely or learn to stand up for myself.You have to be very courageous to do that.”She says she would marry again – preferably, to someone who knows where she is coming from.”That’s a big deal for me: feeling like somebody else can’t fully understand me because they’re not in show business.It shouldn’t matter, but it does, because the energy it takes to be ‘on’ is a lot,” she says.Carey’s latest album, ‘EMC2’, arrives on April 15.Her previous album, ‘The Emancipation of Mimi’, has sold 10 million copies.The April issue of Allure hits newsstands nationwide on March 25.Nampa-AP